I'm currently doing my super boring Hum paper and so far I have finished eight lines of sheer nonsense.
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My apologies to my block, which I'm going to represent at the table tennis interclass tournament. (Oh no. haha) I didn't know that the last singles match I played with Cybill is THE decision match. And I won because of her aching tummy; she ate more during lunch than I did. :P
Yes, even I still couldn't believe my luck. Or Cybill's luck, depending on how you define it. I highly prefer the latter.
It's not that I do not want to play, it's just that I know there are better players, far more better. I still don't know how to hit the ball right, haha. Oh well, the hell with it. Might as well enjoy my fate and let go of pressure. Maybe my last exam luck would also be there next Friday.
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I like Beethoven's 5th symphony, better now than I did before. As opposed to my classmates, I actually prefer the orchestra over a solo piano piece. It's more bold, varied and complete. And you get to hear how variation - contrasts and complements - of sounds are united in a piece. It's amazing how people can create things like that, (eto na naman ako, naaamaze sa lahat ng bagay) unfortunate that I can not. :P
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Dr. Labio and Dr. Gladys in IPC last Wed talked of the horrors of med life - the uber tight schedule, the dominating senior nurses in PGH, the huge pressure from both patients and consultants and the disadvantages of being a 'young' doctor. I'm sooo not looking at this side of med and it didn't seem easy (of course, Serine). I started to think, began to doubt my competence and my decisiveness.
My mom said that the best way to deal with fear is to talk to God about it. So I prayed, submitted my self to the Lord and surrendered my fears to Him. I am actually more scared right now of what lies ahead than I was a year before, but I'm trying to make this situation a test of spirituality. I know that I just have to do my best and everything else's up to Him.
I'm still scared. ;) Pero unquestionably more relieved, knowing that I am not alone on this. :)
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Gotta get back to Hum, ugh. -_-
*done blabbing.
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