Kahapon

Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko, o ayaw ko. Hindi naman kasi lahat naiintindihan at naipapaliwanag. Mayabang kasi ako.

Pero, kaya ako masaya, alam ko namang hindi talaga sapat ang mga salita. ;)

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Blog Break

It's a pity how I just get to write here everytime I need to go online, not whenever I want to.

I'm currently doing my super boring Hum paper and so far I have finished eight lines of sheer nonsense.

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My apologies to my block, which I'm going to represent at the table tennis interclass tournament. (Oh no. haha) I didn't know that the last singles match I played with Cybill is THE decision match. And I won because of her aching tummy; she ate more during lunch than I did. :P

Yes, even I still couldn't believe my luck. Or Cybill's luck, depending on how you define it. I highly prefer the latter.

It's not that I do not want to play, it's just that I know there are better players, far more better. I still don't know how to hit the ball right, haha. Oh well, the hell with it. Might as well enjoy my fate and let go of pressure. Maybe my last exam luck would also be there next Friday.

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I like Beethoven's 5th symphony, better now than I did before. As opposed to my classmates, I actually prefer the orchestra over a solo piano piece. It's more bold, varied and complete. And you get to hear how variation - contrasts and complements - of sounds are united in a piece. It's amazing how people can create things like that, (eto na naman ako, naaamaze sa lahat ng bagay) unfortunate that I can not. :P

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Dr. Labio and Dr. Gladys in IPC last Wed talked of the horrors of med life - the uber tight schedule, the dominating senior nurses in PGH, the huge pressure from both patients and consultants and the disadvantages of being a 'young' doctor. I'm sooo not looking at this side of med and it didn't seem easy (of course, Serine). I started to think, began to doubt my competence and my decisiveness.

My mom said that the best way to deal with fear is to talk to God about it. So I prayed, submitted my self to the Lord and surrendered my fears to Him. I am actually more scared right now of what lies ahead than I was a year before, but I'm trying to make this situation a test of spirituality. I know that I just have to do my best and everything else's up to Him.

I'm still scared. ;) Pero unquestionably more relieved, knowing that I am not alone on this. :)

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Gotta get back to Hum, ugh. -_-

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High in Coffee

But more in reactions of alkenes. +_-
I think I'll be needing a third cup of threeinone. :P

It's been two years and two days. :)

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Resurrected

Three things.

Pom-pom, pim-pam, ping-pong. I hate her yelling, she hates my wrist movements. She, who shouts at every miss and sneers at every mistake, made me dread Thursday afternoons more than any day of the week. However, as much as I want to, I cannot escape the 20-returns/services practicals that we're supposed to have for the course. In pairs. So then I was thinking: I have this wonderful opportunity to mess up for two people. Great. Just Great.
A week before the practicals, I asked Pat, who had no choice but to say yes (bwahaha), to be my partner. Luckily and expectedly, he agreed. :) I actually started to like table tennis after that. Our practices (with Joan, Joanne, CJ, Nil, Cy and Athena) turned out to be fun. :) Although I still don't know how to execute moves accurately, I began to get the hang of things and set aside my reservations. It helped that Pat wasn't taking things very seriously (if he was, he probably would've yelled at me too, hehe) and that he was actually very encouraging. :) I guess his words worked, the results of the exams were quite good. This time, pressure didn't bring out the best in us, letting go of it did. :) We will not suck at the face of adversity, he'd always say, and we certainly didn't. :)

I bet the Shoe Salon personnel could still remember me, the girl who came in with her sandals broken, who tried on every pair of slippers, from Ipanema to Ballina to Crocs and the one who has no money at hand (fine, meron, 200. haha.) After almost an hour of fitting, I finally chose the orange and pink Cleos. :) It was the first time I attempted to buy something a little costly and it seems that my credit card does not support my impulse buying. Imagine the horror of the line 'Maam, hindi po gumagana yung card niyo' and the feeling of returning a very dreamy pair of slip-ons! Also, the thing is, I couldn't leave the store without buying something. Aside from the fact that I tried on almost everything (haha), I couldn't walk with my broken sandals.
Good thing I have friends (Nil, CJ and Ardynne) who were willing to share the embarrassment and to pull out their last coins for me. :) I ended up buying a cheaper pair (which turned out to be my fave right now because of the story behind it). And voila, all's well that ends well. :) After that, it occurred to me that I entered the store with a lot more than 200 pesos. I actually have a bunch of walking gems with me. :)

This semester is one of the busiest, with Organic Chemistry, Physics and Comparative Anatomy and Physiology being taken at the same time. All is not ill, because even though this semester's load is very hard to handle, my being busy taught me how special it is to just sit back and do nothing. It taught me to appreciate the bliss of listening to stories and dreams, of sharing your own stories and dreams and to be with someone you want to be with, even for just a moment. Time equates love, somehow. :)

For Ardynne, who convinced me to save my endangered (susceptible to extinction) blog site. :)

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