Haay.

"I'm going away," he said. And I want you to know that I'm coming back. I love you because..."

"Dont say anything," Fatima interrupted. "One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving."

But the boy continued, " I had a dream, and I met with a king. I sold crystal and crossed the desert. And, because the tribes declared war, I went to the well, seeking the alchemist. So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you."

I MISSED the fifth day of Misa de Gallo. So much for promising not to miss any. :( This is all Paulo Coelho's fault, I just couldn't put the book down, so I ended up staying awake till past two in the morning. The mass starts at 4 so I had to be up by 3. At exactly 2:57, someone tried to wake me up, but I bargained for three more minutes of snoozing. I finally jumped out of bed at around 5. -_-

All I could catch was the 6am mass. I hope, hope, hoooope God accepts compromises. :P


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Mumble

To escape the 10am-10pm scheduled brownout today, we left home not really knowing where to go and without any concrete plans of what to do. Two hours later, we found ourselves seated inside the theater, with candies and burgers and sodas.

Yeah, Happy Feet. :)

Of course, trailers of future pictures were shown at the start. I particularly would want to see Bridge to Terabithia, Spiderman and Harry Potter 5: the first because it looked interesting, the second because Spiderman changed costumes, and the third because Daniel Radcliffe had his hair cut short. :P

Honestly, I found HF boring at first. At first. And to keep myself interested during idle scenes, I was intently listening to Elijah's voice while trying to imagine what his face really looked like while doing the dubbing, hehe. I guess from the moment it started, I was expecting it to be at once entertaining but it wasn't like that really, maybe because it was appraised too highly so I anticipated much, or I'm just not in the mood. But I still say it's a good movie! :) It gets better as the movie progresses. (Serine, siyempre naman.-_-) Nakakatawa, nakakatouch. Nakakaamaze kung paano naintindihan ng mga tao sa huli na nagugutom na ang mga penguin kaya sila nagsasayaw. ^_^ hehe. :D

Although partially shown, the movie isn't about romantic love or filial love - it was more of a kind of love for your fellowmen (or fellow penguin, whatever) and for the community your grew up in. So people! It was really made for politicians, haha. :D And for people who cannot sing like me. :)

Malas lang talaga, I cannot dance too! Alam ko na tuloy kung bakit.. dot, dot, dot. hehe. Maybe in the future they'll make movies about penguins who can't sing and dance. Ayun, abangan ko na solusyon dun! :P :D

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P.S. And maybe, Santa would want to give me Jane Austen's Mansfield Park this Christmas! In addition to the new 1Gb iPod shuffle he promised. hehe. :) Sorry, epekto ng optimism ni Mumble sa Happy Feet. :P

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Eight Names

copied from Eunice's post. :)

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street name)
Hermione P. Burgos! :P

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME:(grandmother/grandfather on your mom's side, your favorite candy) Virsely Milk-Candy-ng-Bench. hehe. :)

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)_ Sdel? haha! :D

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite insect)_ Pink Dragonfly. :) (at last, something sounded good!)

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (mom's name, city where you were born)_ Inna Quezon! :) kamag-anak ko na si Pat! :P

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3letters of your last name, first 2letters of your first name, first 2letters of mom's maiden name and first3 letters of the town you grew up in.)_ Decsedeoba! haha! the best! :D

7. TERRORIST NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)_ Onaced Zurcelad! :)

8. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)_ The Pink Milk Tea! haha! :D

that was fun. :) try niyo rin! hehe. :)

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Friday the Fifteenth

Happy Birthday Lelai! :D

My hands are still a little dirty from clearing out a whole cabinet of books, photos, papers and scraps from the stock room. Susunod na kasing sisirain yung kwarto na yun. Heck, I enjoyed it! :D I was able to read my elementary essays, the best pala yung 'Ang Pinakadakila kong Pagpaparaya', ay sus, di ako matigil sa kakatawa kahit mag-isa ko. (haha) :D Ang dami, dami, dami ko na palang napagdaanan. Ang dami, dami, dami na rin palang dapat itapon. :P

At ang dami, dami, dami ring homeworks and reading assignments. Today's supposed to be the first day of the almost three-week Christmas 'break'. Quote-unquote, di naman kasi talaga break sa dami ng iniwang gagawin. :( Hell weeks pa nga ata. At wala pang baon!

Pero excited ako sa Simbang Gabi bukas. I can't quite feel Christmas here at home because of the construction, at least starting tomorrow, I'll have a little taste of it at the start of the day, hanggang 25th. :) I promised to myself I'll complete all 9 days! Promise talaga. ;)

Promises. :P I'm starting to write my list of New Year's Resolutions. (Daig ng maagap ang masipag!) haha. :D I just hope I won't break any. Last week lang ang dami ko ng nabreak na promise, hindi pa tuloy ako nakakapanood ng Happy Feet. -_-

Talo ang med kahapon sa Lantern Parade. :( Okei lang, still enjoyed shouting med-tarat-tarat along Taft. :)

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Nil!

Ang sama ni Nil kanina! Pagkatapos niya akong ikahiya nung ipapapalit ko yung Christian Bautista calendar para sa Gerald one, pinapose niya ako sa tabi ng maniquin tsaka sasabihang uto. :(

-ayan, pinost ko talaga. :P


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Of Time and Changes

Amazing how time flies. Almost all of us, or at least, Ate, Ate Zen, Tricia and I noticed it a while ago during the baptism of Baby Joaqui, my second nephew in my dad's side. :) My used-to-be playmates Kuya Jay and Kuya Allan are now fathers, and my Kuya Junzen's already abroad to work there. Instances like these make me realize that things are no longer the same, and soon will get more different. Nakakatuwa lang kasi kahit may mga anak na sila, the moment magkita si Kuya Allan and Kuya Jay, ang batian agad, "Nakita mo na yung bagong labas na Superman?" :P

It was a great relief, that some things didn't change, and I guess they never will. :)

Pakiramdam ko minsan mabilis ang panahon, pero madalas parang ang bagal. At minsan, gusto kong may baguhin, pero ayaw ko ring may magbago. -_-



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Ward 3 and the Garland Hunt

Even with the tree lit and adorned with wrapped medicine bottles at the entrance, the Ward 3 of PGH didn't feel Christmas-y. At all. What I instantly saw were a couple of rows of bed filled with patients looking very hopeless and weary (or at least, that's how I see them). Whew, so this is where I'll be for the next three hours. Ooo-kei.

At once, Danni and I saw Daniel at the entrance, with Cedes and Bean. The three of us, Danni, Daniel and I were assigned at the Ward 3, while Ced and Bean's set to work at the ICU.

It was actually our second time to be assigned at a department in PGH. :)

I was assigned first with Alvin and Nicole at the Gastrointestinal Clinic, and boy, was it an experience! I remember during our first day at the clinic, Nicole and I were asked to assist Dr. Reyes in performing colonoscopy to a very old patient. She tried to struggle and break free from the very painful, not to mention awkward, procedure and my task was to firmly hold her legs, while I barely could keep mine upright.

After that first procedure, things got a lot more easier. Most of the time all we had to do were watch procedures, transfer patients to the recovery area and sing with WRock's Wednesday love songs, hehe. :D

Things were different with Ward3, charity ward kasi. It was a lot more depressing, facing patients who didn't even have the chance to eat breakfast that day, who didn't have complete treatment supplies, who are losing their sanity due to their illness and who are unconcious, unaware of when they will open their eyes again.

One doesn't even have his left leg anymore, and while Danni was assisting the nurse in dressing the wound, I complained to Kim and Daniel that my knees are feeling wobbly because of what I'm seeing.

Buti nga may tuhod ka pa para manghina was Daniel's counterclaim.

I silently agreed. :D

On the lighter side, it was a fun experience too. :D We had the chance to 'aspirate' distilled water in preparing meds, wear suffocating but very stylish (haha) N95 masks and were even given the chance to inject. :D Feeling doctors konti, hehe. :)

I realized that what I am expecting in being a doctor is all the glamour pala, forgetting the fact that backstage, things will be messy and depressing and can make your knees feel weaker. Starting that moment, I tried to make space for those kind of things in my head. But that never lessened my enthusiasm to take up medicine, on the contrary, the idea that I should be there was reinforced by what I saw. If that is what I'm set to face in the next few years, then so be it. :)

~After that, we had the earliest Christmas Party with the IPC doctors. :D The best ang Pinoy Henyo pag doctors ang nanghuhula! Sobrang scientific, haha. :D

~That pm, I went to the mall with Ate and Ira to buy a gift for Mom and Dad's anniv. And kailangan ni Ivan ng garland sa kanyang parol for Family Day, so ang aking napakabait, as in sooobra, na bestfriend ang naloka sa paghahanap. :) Owe her bigtime for that, hehe. :)

So yun ang reason kung bakit may Garland Hunt ang title. :D hahaha.

Happy Anniv, Ma and Daddy! :D



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Bluff

Ganito yun. Basta pagalingan lang magsinungaling, mananalo ka na. :)

Tagaytay, Sabado ng gabi. Sa ilalim ng full moon at ng Eucalyptus tree, naisipan naming maglaro ng baraha, wala na kasi kaming magawa. Sayang ang lamig sa labas at ang kumot na nakalatag sa damuhan.

‘Ganito yun,’ sabi ni Kuya Arvin. ‘Basta dapat magaling kang magsinungaling. Pag naglatag ako ng nakabaliktad na baraha, at sinabi kong apat na 10 yun, puwede niyong hulaan kung totoo ba yung sinabi ko. Puwedeng apat na 10 nga yung nilapag ko, o hindi. Kung walang kokontra, ako ulet ang magbababa. Kung meron, at tama kayo, mababalik sa akin yung baraha. Kung may kumontra sa akin at mali siya, sa kanya mapupunta yung baraha.’

‘Dahil may apat na deck, may apat na cards din ang bawat number. Pag sinabi kong tatlong 10 ang nilapag ko, puwede niyong buuin at gawing 4, magdadagdag kayo ng isa pang 10. Siyempre, puwede kayong manloko. Puwedeng hindi pala 10 ang ibaba niyo, mabuo niyo lang yung binaba ko. Kung walang kokontra, ikaw ulet ang magbababa. Kung meron, at tama sila, mapupunta sa iyo pati ang baraha ko. Kung may kumontra sa iyo at mali, sa kanya mapupunta yung baraha.’

‘Kung ikaw ang nagkumpleto ng deck at walang kumontra, ikaw naman ang maglalapag ng maglalapag. Ulit lang. Gets?’

‘Unang maubos ang baraha, panalo.’

Tumango ako. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko maintindihan. Nagbalasa. Nagpamigay. Manunuod muna ko, sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Nauna si Kuya Arvin. Tatlong 10 daw yung nilapag niya Walang kumontra. Naglapag ulit siya ng tatlong baraha, tatlong 10 daw ulit yun. ‘Bluff!’ sabi ni Ate Daisy. Pinakita ni Kuya Arvin yung nilapag niya, tatlong 10 nga. Yung unang lapag pala niya ang kasinungalingan. Napunta lahat kay Ate Daisy yung baraha. :)

A, madali lang to, nasabi ko sa sarili ko. Hindi na lang ako magsisinungaling, lahat ng ilalapag ko, yung totoo.

Naglaro. :) Naubos na agad ni Kuya Arvin ang baraha niya, magaling manlinlang. Dumadami na ang cards nina Ate Daisy, Alaina, Ate at Ellise. Pero maya-maya, nauubos din. Basta diskarte lang sa lokohan, sa pagpili ng tiyempo, sa pagsugal ng pagkakataon.

Hindi pa rin ako nagsisinungaling. Naghihintay lang ako na may mabuong deck, tsaka ko kukumpletuhin. Minsan dumadami ang cards nila dahil sa akin, dahil pag sinabi nilang ‘Bluff!’ ako, napupunta sa kanila. E hindi nga ako nagsisinungaling.

Hindi nga ako nagsisinungaling, hindi naman ako nananalo. E sinira ko na nga ang purpose ng laro, para lang hindi madagdagan ang hawak kong baraha. Hindi rin naman umuusad ang pagkaubos ng hawak ko. Walang kwentang kalaro. Walang butong sumugal, walang angas manloko. Wala talagang kwenta.

Talo. Pero masaya kasi nasubukan ko at marami akong natutunan tungkol sa sarili ko.

Tumulala, o tumula.

It’s either I am doing the right thing by waiting for the right time, or I am wasting time by letting it pass by. It’s either I am set to face the perfect moment, or I am currently missing it. Should I stay hanging at the edge of the cliff? Or should I jump? Would I fly?

Anu man ang piliin ko, meron at merong iiyak.

One thing’s sure though. The more I think about it, the more I become unsure of what to do, and the more I become unsure of what to do, the more I become sure that this is all worth the trouble. :D



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